Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

I've been going through a lot lately. Work related escalations in the office, misunderstanding with friends, and aching body due to a severe lupus flare up. Why are these things happening all at the same time? The answer, that I don't know. What I know is that being in this kind of situation is difficult. My heart and my body are in pain.

Sleepless nights, stressful days at work, skipped meals, and days filled with tears... this is how I can describe the life I lived for the past couple of days. I've been talking to some close friends to seek comfort. I've been reading bible verses that could help strengthen my weakened soul. As much as I want to avoid the pain, it just keeps on striking.

Then I had this conversation with a friend. I told her that I just probably need to lift everything to Him because I know that He will never abandon me. My exact words were "kailangan ko maniwala at magtiwala". As mentioned in Deuteronomy 31:6 --" Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Just this afternoon, another friend texted me a title of the song -- "Lord, it hurts, but you are still God". She told me to search for the lyrics. Guess what my initial reaction was after reading the lyrics? I cried. But the tears weren't caused by pain; they were brought about by the happiness I felt knowing that I might lose people and things in my earthly life but I will never lose Him. I pray that everything will get better when the right time comes.

Many times I have wondered why

I'm going through this pain.

Is it something I've done wrong?

Lord, am I the one to blame?

You're the answer to my problems

Even though it still remains,

I've heard the darkest hour

Is just before the dawn.

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.

I know that you are able

To remove this thorn from me.

By faith I know you'll make a way

Even when I cannot see.

You're my only hope in this world,

The One I lean upon.

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

Lord, I'll trust in you with all my heart.

I won't try to understand

Why you've not taken away this burden;

I'll just leave it in your hands.

'Cause I know your time is not like mine.

I believe you have a plan.

Until then I'll do my best to be strong.

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.

I know that you are able

To remove this thorn from me

By faith I know you'll make a way

Even when I cannot see

You're my only hope in this world,

The One I lean upon

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.

So I will not be discouraged

Though the battle rages on

I know you won't forsake me, Lord.

This is where I belong.