I've been going through a lot lately. Work
related escalations in the office, misunderstanding with friends, and aching
body due to a severe lupus flare up. Why are these things happening all at the
same time? The answer, that I don't know. What I know is that being in this
kind of situation is difficult. My heart and my body are in pain.
Sleepless nights, stressful days at work,
skipped meals, and days filled with tears... this is how I can describe the
life I lived for the past couple of days. I've been talking to some close
friends to seek comfort. I've been reading bible verses that could help
strengthen my weakened soul. As much as I want to avoid the pain, it just keeps
on striking.
Then I had this conversation with a friend. I
told her that I just probably need to lift everything to Him because I know
that He will never abandon me. My exact words were "kailangan ko maniwala
at magtiwala". As mentioned in Deuteronomy 31:6 --" Be strong and
courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your
God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Just this afternoon, another friend texted me
a title of the song -- "Lord, it hurts, but you are still God". She
told me to search for the lyrics. Guess what my initial reaction was after
reading the lyrics? I cried. But the tears weren't caused by pain; they were
brought about by the happiness I felt knowing that I might lose people and
things in my earthly life but I will never lose Him. I pray that everything will get better when the right time comes.
Many times I have wondered why
I'm going through this pain.
Is it something I've done wrong?
Lord, am I the one to blame?
You're the answer to my problems
Even though it still remains,
I've heard the darkest hour
Is just before the dawn.
Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.
I know that you are able
To remove this thorn from me.
By faith I know you'll make a way
Even when I cannot see.
You're my only hope in this world,
The One I lean upon.
Lord, it hurts, but you're still God
Lord, I'll trust in you with all my heart.
I won't try to understand
Why you've not taken away this burden;
I'll just leave it in your hands.
'Cause I know your time is not like mine.
I believe you have a plan.
Until then I'll do my best to be strong.
Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.
I know that you are able
To remove this thorn from me
By faith I know you'll make a way
Even when I cannot see
You're my only hope in this world,
The One I lean upon
Lord, it hurts, but you're still God.
So I will not be discouraged
Though the battle rages on
I know you won't forsake me, Lord.
This is where I belong.
