Crazy Thing Called Love

Feb. 12, 2011 - Two days before Valentine's day, I went to the Hot Air Balloon Festival at Clark Field Pampanga. I saw a lot of couples there but there was this one couple who caught my attention. Why? Because they were wearing the famous 'couples shirt', they have the same wrist watch, and they were wearing the same pair of shoes which I have branded as 'couples shoes'. I sighed when I saw them hoping that I was with my prince charming that day watching the hot air balloons fly up in the sky. But I wasn't. I must accept the reality that I am not with someone special right now and it seems that my prince charming is still finding his way to my heart.

Feb. 13, 2011 - A day before Valentine's day, I decided to do some nail pampering. Wishing to have some ME time, I went to the mall to get some manicure and pedicure. To my surprise, upon entering the treatment area I saw a not so young couple having foot spa. Yesterday wasn't my lucky day. And today is still not my lucky day. I felt a bit envious as this is one thing that I dreamt of doing with a special someone. They were teasing each other while having their foot spa session. I wanted to leave the area asap because I could not bear their sweetness any longer. But I could not stand up and walk away from that scene. I ended up pretending not to hear them and I focused on my Iphone games instead.

Please be kind to me! I am not bitter. I am not a love hater. I am just envious. I envy the happy couples walking side by side at the hot air balloon festival. I envy the couple having their foot spa together. I envy those people who are in love. Come on, let's face the reality. I am single and haven't been in a relationship for two years now. And to be honest, I missed the feeling of falling in love over and over again with the person who have stolen my heart. I missed hearing these words come from his mouth: "I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever... even if saving you sends me to heaven". I missed being called pet names like "baby" or "love". To cut this short, I missed being in love head over heels.

Feb 14, 2011 - My dilemma now is how I'm gonna spend Valentine's day without having someone to spend it with. I went to work early hoping I'll find flowers on my desk. I was a bit disappointed that there was none. I took my normal morning routines, answered emails, and worked on my task. Finally, lunch time came. I had lunch with a good office friend. We ate at Amici Ayala Triangle. Some thought that it was a date. It wasn't! It was just a friendly lunch with my good friend. We both enjoyed the food but I didn't enjoy my surroundings. Why? Because there were a lot of couples everywhere. I may have felt a little awkward being surrounded by couples but it was ok, anyway I did enjoy my lunch meal with Brian.

No flower deliveries, no sweet text messages and emails, no phone calls - this is how I'm gonna describe my Vday. But I didn't lose hope. It's already 4pm and my prince charming might be on his way already. 2 hours have passed and there were no signs of him. Time to go home. I am losing the hope of having a happy Vday when suddenly, our female utility personnel handed me a long stemed pink rose. Damn! I was surprised and touched at the same time when she said that it was for me. Thanks Ate Weng! I must have done something good to you that you decided to give me a rose. An hour passed and I was already with my girl friend Edan. We agreed to have dinner at Sinangag Express (SEx) before meeting our other friend Karlo. The food chain was a bit full and crowded. And for the second time today, I was being surrounded by couples. After having dinner, we went to Karlo's place and we had some DVD bonding. This is how I spent my day.

I may have felt a little sad not being with someone special on Valentine's day. But I could not set aside the happiness I felt being with my closest friends who I love and who loves me back. Hearts' day is not only for couples. It is not for those who are married and in-a-relationship. Futhermore, happiness on Vday does not only mean being with your other half. It may also mean being with the people you love and who loves you back -- like friends.

Thanks for the people who made me survive this day. I hope everyone of you had a happy and memorable Vday. Stay happy! Stay in love! ♥